Its really great to see some support and compassion going around here, I've only been a member for 6months and thought you were all a good bunch of lads but you have all shown your true colours and its quite humbling tbh. Blokes dont talk enough and find it hard to do so kudos for having the guts voice your feelings Matty. Everybody is spot on, things have a funny way of working themselves out you just need to hang tough. The missus and I split up for a couple of months about 5 years ago when I was your age(yeah I checked your profile...) and now were married and have a 4 month old son. Things will work out if they are meant to mate. The best thing you can do is try and clear your mind a bit cause it sounds like its just swimming. Try to devote your mental energy to moving forward rather than draining it with negative thoughts. Sounds easy but we all know its not. And it's most certainly not inappropriate to vent here, if this is where you feel comfortable to do so then vent away. Clearly you have the support here. Id be happy to catch up for a beer or something if your in the Brisbane area and want to chat to somebody outside your circle of friends which can sometimes help as we have no preconceptions about your situation.